Touched By it~

I happen to come across this poem being read on tv and i sudden recalled that i've heard it long ago. Felt alot for this poem...thinking wat if this really happened to me, will i be able to handle this kind of heartache? This poem is called "The Furthest Distance On The World" by Rabindranath Togore.

The furthest distance in the world
Is not between life and death
But is when I stand before you
Yet you don't know that I love you

The furthest distance in the world
Is not when i stand before you
Yet don't know that I love you
But is when knowing that we love each other
Yet cannot Be togehter

The furthest distance in the world
Is not being apart while being in love
But is when plainly cannot resist the yearning
Yet pretending You have never been in my heart

The furthest distance in the world
Is not never having you in my heart
But using one's indifferent heart
To dig an uncrossable river
For the one who loves you

世界上最遥远的距离
不是生与死
而是我就站在你的面前
你却不知道我爱你

世界上最遥远的距离
不是我站在你面前
你却不知道我爱你
而是明明知道彼此相爱
却不能在一起

世界上最遥远的距离
不是明明知道彼此相爱
却不能在一起
而是明明无法抵挡这股想念
却还得故意装作不在意
丝毫没有把你放在心里

世界上最遥远的距离
不是树与树的距离
而是同根生长的树枝
却无法在风中相依

世界上最遥远的距离
不是树枝无法相依
而是相互了解的星星
却没有交汇的轨迹

世界上最遥远的距离
不是星星之间的轨迹
而是纵然轨迹交汇
却在转瞬间无处寻觅

世界上最遥远的距离
不是瞬间便无处寻觅
而是尚未相遇
便注定无法相聚

世界上最遥远的距离
是鱼与飞鸟的距离
一个在天，
一个却深潜海底

Feeling/Getting Sick

Hvn't been feeling well lately since thursday, kenna attacked by constant sniffing and unstoppable sneezes. It isn't an allergy this time so it seems like no medication is helping me nw...(12pm nw)

Juz heard a not so shocking news that the other assistant is leaving... kind of leave me feeling both happy and nervous at the same time. Happy is due to the fact that the trouble maker is leaving...and at least i dun hv to be so tense up anymore. Why nervous? Of cuz it's bcuz of the increase in wrkload that i'll be getting.

(3.30pm)Still hving flu, hving a slight fever..think it got worst cuz i was caught in the rain today. Not that i did nt bring my umbrella but tat the rain was simply too strong. feeling kind of terrible...

Siansation~

Din wanna wake up today, cuz it was raining...best time to hide under the comforter and slp. But still, feeling obligated to wrk, i had no choice but to force myself outta bed.

After wrk yesterday, i went for abit of grocery shopping. had a hard time carrying all the things hm...cuz i think i bought too much...but most of d things were for my breakfast in the office. Once i reach hm, i carried on watching "100% Senorita". D story quite nice loh...den the cast quite similar to that of "Dolphin Bay". Suppose to meet my mom @7.45pm to hv dinner @ d new market, but bcuz i was already @hm, i din wanna go out. but was still "forced" to go cuz mom need to buy rice n i din wan her to carry the sack. Still i din eat dinner as i was angry wif mom for "forcing" me out.

when i came hm frm d 2nd grocery shopping, i head str to my PC to continue my drama. at this pt, i saw a 'fren' whom i din really wanna chat on msn, so i changed my mode to offline. after 2 episodes of d drama, i noticed another fren online...wanting to chat wif him, i switch back to online mode forgetting tat d 'fren' still online...so as soon as i changed it, he msg me... asking me plenty of qns and asking to meet...i dun wanna meet him. cuz i gt no time n dun see a pt in meeting someone i feel annoyed by. so i decided to switch off my msn completely to concentrate on my drama.

din stay up too late last nite but in the end still felt slpy in the morning...think i shd extend my slping hrs abit long tonite...

12th May 2005,10.45am

Slacking at Everything

Recently, i realised that i din hv the drive to do anything anymore...even to the extend that i wanna quit my job n *"nuah" at home. No mood for anything...Going to wrk is juz like a formality, being there only show my face...basically i was juz surfing the net frm 7.30am - 4.30pm. Most of u muz be thinking " Whoa, get paid to slack yet she still complain"...but when u're in my shoes all i can say is gd luck to u...Super boring cuz nth to do, super tiring cuz u hv to think of wat u can do.

Seppo, this is translated only for u ^~^
*nuah = rot

After watching my first d/l taiwanese series "At Dolphin Bay", i start to d/l another series called "100% Senorita". Was watching the 1st 2 episodes yesterday...by the time i finish episode 2, it was near 2am...(think that's the reason y i slacking liao bah). Y i d/l these series it's bcuz i dun wanna see Fann Wong on TV... she really sux.

It seems like the only life i hv is playing the Character "Pamela Patterson" in Sims 2. Currently she's married n pregnant, staying at hm to rest(which i hope to acheive too if i dun wanna wrk, nt the pregnant part though). She's wrking as a Desk Sergent(Police), while her hubby is a con artist...funny combo rite? I din check her hubby's career b4 i gt them married...Everyday after wrk(real life), i'll either play FF8 on PS (yesh, again for the upteenth time), if not play SIM 2 or Mahjong on PC.

Appealing to all who are reading my blog, pls feel free to leave comments cuz i'm quite curious about wat u think of my (boring) life.

Mothers' Day!~

Dun think i'll be updating for the past few days... abit boring this w...dun wanna bore you ppl to death...anyway, Today is Sun, mother's day...went to church today. was already thinking wat to gv my mom this yr but hvn't got the idea till i was reading my email n saw that there was a promo with the Popular card... there was this spa treatment for 2 on mother's day so i tot it might be a nice idea for my mom... juz then my sis called me up to find out if i hv anything for my mom...den i let her in on this "present" loh...so it's like 1 present but shared by 4 person(my sis, her hubby, me n colin) lah...

then early this morning, while waiting for my alarm to ring, i suddenly tot of the movie "Starwars"...decided to msg all my cousins to watch together...so total i managed to get 12 ppl to go watch it the wk after...on the 20th of may...so many ppl watching n the damn tix is so ex...wonder if there is enuf seatings for all of us?

halfway while writing this blog, i was playing PS wif Colin, shit him lah...beat me in the game... den yah yah say he let me win in the first rd one..so angry...urgh...sh hv known dun gv him his present liao...but scared he nxt wk cannot bk out so gv him first...but i thinking of getting him something else...that is if he can bk out nxt wk lah...tml will be a bz day cuz i cocked up my wrk on fri/sat so gtg back salvage everything...hope nt so jia lat...

nth else to write nw so stopping here liao...everything is gonna be alrite for me tml...i hope lah...ciao~

Long Wkend~

Seems like Singapore got lot of long wkend this yr...really hope to get more nt only this yr...but every yr... like this, i'm able to go for short trips into neighbouring countries liao...

okies, i know i'm suppose to update my blog again but i simply dun remember wat happened on fri, except that my bf came to ym hse collect his VCD (Wrestlemania XXI). cuz he already said tat he'll be staying over only on sun, so he wanted to hv some time for himself...

sat, wrk was quite ok, so nth to complain about...start on TrimSlim(TS) today,hope the results are great. i gt to know this new fren wrkin in the HR dept, my age one...a very sweet ger with a very cute name (An An), got to knoe her cuz we take the same bus to wrk. was chatting to her on the bus den i asked if she wld like to join me for lunch, while buying lunch, i met my sec fren, Thomas Wu...used to be from the same(boring) club...Since, long time nv see liao so we started to chat lor...but nt wanting to neglect my new fren An An, i introduce the both of them...who knows, this conversation btw the 3 of us lasted for more than 1.5hrs... was suppose to meet Colin 2.30pm but i'm already late(as usual). so i took a cab to cineleisure to meet him...ate abit frm Long John, den decided to go PS shop for some clothes(Colin's). after shopping, i din want to eat anything cuz i think the TS made me feel full. Din hv anywhere else to go so Colin went hm n i was hm alone...no govt till Mon...all went to malaysia. den ard 11.30, i suddenly remembered that today go church youth event...i forgot all about it.

Was suppose to go church Sun, but bcuz nt feeling well, den din go. Colin called to ask if i've fot anyplace that i wanna go...simply no idea cuz s'pore so small n been to most places liao...but then, i had a craving for a certain food tat day... hmmm...it's frm this Fast food restaurant called Popeye..they only hv one stall in Changi Airport...Biyi, u know which one i'm toking about hor...Yupz, i went all the way there for lunch. When i reach there, i headed to T2 cuz that's where i remembered it was but....when i reached T2 i couldn't find it so i had to ask ard...only to find out that it's in T1...so i went back to T1 and found it at last...Colin liked the food there(so i can ask him along again if i hv the cravings...hehehe)too..

since we go nth to do, we deicided to head hm, but realised that MRT is at T2, so we had to go back there again...sianz...Took the train back hm, den decided to skip dinner again, cuz really too full liao. Colin brought his PS games over to play cuz he knew he wld be bored. While he was playing games, he asked me to cook the "instant" dessert for him tat we bought frm T1's NTUC...so that later he can eat(@!#@ like a king wor)... after his dessert he suggest watching "the Exorcist" which i dun like cuz i scared....but then we watched abit den slp liao cuz the travelling made us so damn tired...

today, early morning waken up by Colin, cuz he itchy hands keep disturbing me...since i'm awake liao, i might as well make breakfast...but that "king" of mine wanted to finish the movie...since it's morning, i nt so frighten den i watch wif him loh...but halfway thru the show i feel abit hungry so i went to cook spagatti for the both of us as "brunch". after brunch n after washing all the dishes, colin n i went back to bed, cuz afternoon sun hot den nth to watch on tv oso....woke up at ard 5, ask if he want to eat out or order mac/pizza...he say too lazy to go out n no $$ to order, den i hv to cook again...*abit angry* (nt tat i always do the cooking but Colin u promised to do the washing up but NV).

he went off at ard 7.30 cuz he needs to bk in...den i hm alone till 11.30 whn my parents came hm...nw it's 11.55 n i going to slp(yesh again). tml gtg wrk n i wonder wat kind of day awaits me...