Prenatal Depression

I was told that i'm already showing symtoms that i do have Prenatal Depression. Not that my husband dun love me or dun care about me... it's juz that i'm constantly worried about the many things that i have to take care of after delivery. I'm worried that i wun be a good mother to my baby, not able to help out in the family finance, can't get a good job after confinement and whether will i be able to handle both wrk and home together.

Sometimes when i start to feel this way, emotions start to well up... and for no reason i'll juz cry. And i can't really explain why i cry...juz feel like crying...and after that i will feel much better. There are times too when i would like to call up my friends and juz to complain but whenever i wanted to call them, i'll tell myself that they are working/ busy and i best not to disturb them...they too have a life of their own...Then after that i'll start to cry again cuz its really terrible to keep all my problems bottled up...

Can't really sleep at night cuz recently when i sleep on my sides, i do get the numb feelings after slping on one side too long...and turning to the other side id difficult as baby is really getting too heavy. And when i slp on my back, i do get the kind of feeling that i'm being suffocated. Sometimes, when i actually do get to slp, i'll be waken up cuz there's the need to go to the bathroom. Trying to get out of bed is really a pain nowadays. And i think i'm really confined in my room. No point for me to go out cuz the pain in the lower back is bad and i'll be panting like crazy after walking for 15mins...

Sometimes, i really think that i've made a wrong decision to have a baby now cuz i might not be prepared for it but nw it's really to late for regrets and for those who knows me well, i really hate to have that feeling(regret). Right now, i feel that this uneasy feeling that i'm going thru will continue to grow untill after baby comes out and hopefully after getting more rest i'll feel totally different...and not forgetting when i see my baby smile, den i'll think that after all that i've gone thru, it's really worth it.