Parents

sometimes i really wonder if i shd be fillial to my parents... Sometimes i also think that most of my problems were caused by them. What i fear most they fail to see...then later they misunderstand my ideas.

The situation is so bad that I'm even hoping and wishing my dad to be dead soon. I keep thinking "if only he is dead...". As long as he doesn't illtreat my son of pamper my son i"ll find him ok. But seriously he is overdoing it.

I myself is a parent now, I'm suddenly able to understand why my mom told me years ago that when we grow up, she's going to check into an old folks home herself. To live with pride... I too would rather check in myself than have my son dump me there.

my son is growing up fast and i seriously scared that he'll grow up to be like me. All his tempers and behaviours.... I can understand him at times cuz i have been through that stage but my parents don't and they won't listen to my explaination.

Sometimes when Cedric crys in the middle of the nite, my dad will start shouting at him but i know that Cedric only wans attention... someone to pat him to slp again. My dad dun understand. so when my dad starts shouting, cedric gets scared and start to cry even louder. When he does that, he doesnt stop. Not even when i interfere. I did inform my dad tat when such situation occurs, all he needs to do is give cedric his pacifier and pat him to slp but he nv listens. And when Cedric crys, the whole family will wake up. It disrupts our rest and we can work well in the morning.

Colin is starting to retaliate against my dad too. Finally he understands my dad's personalities.
But then again he is beginning to be like my dad. Chauvanistic and refuse to listen to people's advice.I know his is concern about ccedric and his cough but kids dun get well from cough so soon. How many doctors has cedric seen so far from 6weeks ago? 4 doctors and 1 more from NUH A & E. Initially when cedrics cough non stop, he thinks that cedric might get pneumonia...hello...that is flu okies, not cough.... If you tell me TB i still wun laugh so hard.

i can only wait and hope for a miracle that somethings might change in the family.
but seriously, before the change occurs,will i go mad first?