Distant

I'm feeling lost. I'm feeling lonely. where are all of you? Why are you not at my side when i need you all? Have i done something wrong? i dun hear from all of u anymore. I felt like I'm being cast aside like a rag doll, no longer needed, no longer wanted by anyone.

Why are you all doing this to me? when i need me, i nv turn away from you.. but where are u when i needed you? i tot i cld relie on you or at least hv someone to listen to my problems like i've done for u. but now i've got no one to tok to.

dont leave me alone. i'm tired n i cant cope alone anymore.

A different kind of lifestyle

Currently just paying more attention to my job as I have look after the
livelihood of 3 other pax. There are opportunities for a new relationship
but i dun wanna go think about it now as it will be unfair him. Of cuz i
can be a total bitch and play with other ppl's feelings but I think i have
enough trouble for now.

Not much different from when i last blogged, still working (passed my
probation le!! yeah!!). Usually is after work just go home straight.
Reach home feed Cedric / have dinner with my parents, head str to the room
for dramas with Cedric happily playing his DS beside me. Been trying to
make Cedric slp by 10.30pm for about 1 mth but he still refuses to slp
unless it's 11pm and must be after he finishes his chocolate milk. He is so
prone to nightmares and thus causing me to be sleep deprived. With that
comes the headache and plenty of other stuff.