life. everytime when i feel bliss, something else comes along and destroy
all happiness. It makes me fearful. I think I am jinxed. I dun deserve to
be happy...or i should say, my happiness is obtained from other ppl's
sorrow. Evil...It just seems that way...I shd be left alone and let to rot
in hell. I shd just push away my source of gladness, my comfort, prevent
history from repeating itself.
Jon, u asked me wat if u cant get along with my dad? I dunno hw to answer
u. I'm bounded by responsibilities to take care of him till he dies. I
cant leave him for u. I can only have a life after I'm free from him...
