Tired...

So much has happened in the past 6 mths that made me very tired. I had a change of environment... new job, new colleagues... thinking that everything will go out smoothly for me... but as the saying goes.... life is like a bed of roses, its beautiful but full of thorns...

My new environment at work totally suck...My boss is my relative who is very understanding and concerned abt me. That's not really a bad thing. But its my colleagues that make me sick of going to work... I noe my weaknesses but i am trying my best to overcome them. My colleagues are not understanding and they make the office a living hell for me. Everyday i come into office hoping that the day will end quickly. Initially, i tried to make conversations with them but after trying and getting hurt in the process, i give up. If you take the initiative to tok to ppl, and they do not want to response, its nt your fault. they are a bunch of awful ppl who thinks only of themselves... of cuz not all are that bad but for the not so bad ones, its the case of "if i tok to you, i might get isolated too". Pressure and stress from these ppl can drive me crazy. They do not dare to do anything when the boss is ard. But when the boss is away, i can get hell. I was being shouted at and its humiliating. More so i was being shouted at for helping them do a case.

I had questions abt work that i nt sure of cuz i have to ask rite? I know beforehand that the boxes in the common area are unslightly, and boss din like tat. All i wanted to do was to move some boxes out from the crowded area to look for a missing box... nt that I'm just leaving them there... I had to ask the boss... after asking, boss says to discuss among ourselves. I check with the Snr again... she had to go into the boss rm to cfm... after coming out she can show me black face and say : "Next time ask the questions u're suppose to ask, dun act smart ask other things". if i'm that clever, i wun be working here...bloody hell...these shitty ppl.

so rite nw i just work on my own and i dun tok to any of them... The joke is tat when i first arrived, my boss says i anti-social.... to all that knows me... "SINCE WHEN AM I ANTI SOCIAL???" i nv am anti social fyi. Period.

Just because i kept quiet, that doesnt mean i give you permission to walk all over me. I juz choose not to blow up the matter. But they choose to take my silence as i'm ez to trifle with...juz they wait...when i cant hold it anymore, i'll just shot my ammo and throw my letter.