Alone in my bedroom w/o Colin and bb in the hse. all seems so quiet yet when Colin calls me from my in-law's place, i find it really irritating. what's wrong with me?
I realise that i cant communicate with ppl who are close to me. is it my attitude? but i've been like this since u guys know me. i havnt changed and i dun foresee myself changing either, but what has gone wrong?
all bcuz i'm married? i hv a responsibility nw that I'm a mother? but i do have a life too... i wanna be who i am and not wat all of u portray me to be. I wanna be out there with my frens, to share all ur good and bad. I want to be the shoulder that you can lean on, be there for u.
colin: i'm not sure y we're always arguing. we dun seem to see eye to eye nw. i dun want to go thru this every day. I'm human and i do feel the pain too. i know u care about our son, but i need u to care about me too. Is a hug from u too much to ask for?
biyi: i'm happy for u. u're my confidant and i still need u. i might be asking too much but i really missed the times that we're always hanging out together.
mic: i was reading ur blog and realise that i really missed out alot. I wish that i can be there to share ur probs. though i cant do much but i can always be ur listening ear.
des: we've been frens for so long and we've only had 2 major conversations that i can recall. 1 was when we're still in pri sch and another one was at mic's chalet. i'd love to chat with u more often, even if it means nagging from u. funny rite? but i value ur comments/opinions.
I'm not sure who else reads my blogs or if anyone is still reading but i seriously need frens at this time of my life. someone pls let me know that u still care be it verbally or physically cuz i'm a blockhead that needs reaassurance.
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