Final Decision

Met up with Colin last nite to have a chat. Need to get some answers from him before i make my final decision.
Since that frightful day, it has been clear to me that I have to let go of my feelings for him. But I still have to think on behalf of Cedric.
He needs a father to grow up with.

After toking to Colin, it was very clear that Cedric does not need a father like Colin.
Besides, Colin has made it clear that he doesnt want his son. I asked myself, since that is the case, Cedric can well do without a father.
A desion has been made, another thorn out of my heart, but another load to bear.
I have to be both a father n mother to Cedric. My responsibility has escalated.

I'm not sure if i can do a good job of it but I'll try my best.
Thanks to all who have walked with me thru this period of dark times.
I have disappointed many ppl in the process, but please give me time to grow up mentally as a mother, daughter, sister and friend.
I'm really trying very hard now.