Getting used to the new lifestyle

Being a single mom now can be a challenge. There are so many things i have to get used to w/o Colin ard. I guess I was so depended on him that he was burdened by it. But no point for me to harp on it. It has passed. Now, though i cant have much time for myself since i have to be both mom n dad for Cedric, I find that the time i spend with him is really enjoyable.

Most of the time Cedric used to play in the living rm by himself. Now he sits beside me and we would play the DS together. Often, I'm tempted to take it away to play by myself cuz he's not the sharing type. That is the time when playtime and discipline comes in together. I'll take the game from him and ask him to sit in front of me while i teach him hw to play the game.
It is also at this time I learn to be more patient with him. I used to cane him for the slightest mistake that he made. Often caninghim first before explaining why he is being caned for. But right now, it is different. When he misbehave the first time, I'll tell him off that what he did was wrong. And if he were to do it again, he'll be punished with a stroke of cane on his palm.

The second time the same mistake made, i'll come round with the cane and remind him tat he is to be punished. It's really comical when the punishment is being carried out. I'll ask him to stretch out his hand and open his palm. Then at this time he'll tell me something real cute like Mommy, cannot beat hard hard huh!!" (-_-lll)

At least now he knows that he'll be punished for the wrong things that he has done. I'll give myself a pat on the back for that..hehe~

For all my frens and relatives ard me, I just wanna say that I'm coping well now and do not worry about me. I have so much to look forward to and I'm definately looking forward to it. (dunno if all these make sense!!)