Frustrated...

Just when will my problem go away? How many times do i have to go thru this? Why do i say it in singular but not pural form? The problem is my dad. Without him, I can get a maid to help me take care of Cedric. At least, the maid will listen to my instructions and not throw temper at me. I'm sick of hearing his complains, sick of having to help him find every single nail, bolt and screw he dropped cuz he cant see. Not that i dun wan to help him. He spends money on low quality stuff and when they dun work, he tries to repair it. But as he cant see, he spoils or make it worse in the process. then he blames everyone else but himself.

If happens that Cedric is in the vicinity, he'll blame Cedric for hindering his work. He starts raising his voice at Cedric. And since i dun like to hear his voice, I will have to scold Cedric cuz i cant fault my dad. I feel bad for Cedric, cuz most of the time he is innocent. But because I have such father, his time is ending, I have to give in to him. Why cant i have a Dad that is reasonable? I dun mind if he is poor as long as he has a proper job. I dun mind even if he is sick and requires treatment, as long as he goes for his treatment and listens to us and understands that we do care.

This is something that i hope and wish for but its something that i can never have....