She's gone forever

Couldnt sleep the night before this. Mom's already been admitted into the hospital. Her condition is not looking good. Doctor mentioned that she might require life-support to assist her breathing. This is something that we all know she did not want.

Around 2 pm yesterday Tuesday afternoon, the hospital called to inform me that she was doing better, only needed normal oxygen mask. But who knows, only after 1 hour, they called to say her condition worsen. She had to be placed on the high pressure oxygen mask. If it gets any worse, she will be on the life support machine. I had guessed that something is not right that night cause i was unable to sleep.

The call came at 3 am in the morning, informing me that they had placed my mom on life support. My sis and i had to go to the hospital in the morning. We had decided to keep the truth from my dad. The doctor mentioned that the next 24 hours will be the critical moment. Her heartrate was going between 140-160. With such conditions, its either her lungs or her heart dies out first. It'll be a miracle if my mom survives this.

Friends and family members came one after another to encourage my mom to hold on. They had prayed for her too.

4pm, Doctors called for a meeting with the family members again. My dad is still out of the picture. NUH informed us that my mom's condition had dropped further and how they are unable to do anything for her except to lessen her pain. They told us to be prepared for the worse. My sis and i decided to inform my dad as we do not want him to miss seeing her for one last time. While waiting for my dad, we nearly lost her. Her heartrate was going at 166, i'm so worried that she will miss my dad and Cedric. I know that even though she is unconcious, she can still hear us. Her heartrate dropped to 140 everytime i begged her to hang on, to wait for Dad to arrive. They reached at 9.30pm.

10.3opm, 36 hours since i last slept. Crashing. I was sent home. Reached home around 11.30pm. Made Cedric sleep and i change out of my clothes only to receive a call from NUH that my mom's heartbeat was going too fast. James was left behind to watch over mom at the visitor's lounge but having no sleep the previous night, he too fell asleep. While heading out of the house, my dad had known that my mom's condition had worsen. He cant go back to the hospital as Cedric needed someone to look after. Called my sis to come pick me up, and head back to the hospital.

At 26 Nov, 12.06am, i received a call from James informing me that my mom is gone. We reached the hospital at 12.20am that day...we were too late. My mom is gone forever...